back to work!!

AND SO! It's officially the end of my holidays. One and a half months to be honest, wasnt exactly short, but it's just so hard to get the momentum and switch back to 'work mode'. Am expecting my January to be a busy one, with all the adjusting and preparing for CNY. This hols has been relatively fruitful and packed, and I did manage to do a few things on my to-do list. Still have loads to clear though!

Want to write some new year resolutions, but feeling too sleepy to think about them. MAYBE i shall write them out in the next entry, IF i do find time to come back after tmr ahaha. Erm although that reminds me, the very first resolution that i should have is LESSER PROCRASTINATION. AHAHAH.

Sometimes even I myself get disgusted at how i like to procrastinate things, but it's always just so much easier to say "later.....". This would really be a challenging goal for me to achieve, haha.

Am very likely confirmed to be putting on braces after CNY, though I'm not sure if i'll need extractions. The orthodontist will only call me in mid-jan to let me know, after she has examined my xrays. I really wish to have beautiful teeth, though I'm not looking forward to the 'torture' that I have to go through before getting them. SIGH. Ok la, this is such a first-world problem i know, so shall not whine about it. hahaha!

SHUCKS just remembered that I still have to go find social stories for tmr. In the past, all I felt was anxiety about first day of school, but now i have to be the one to comfort all these anxiety. Haha and I can't even show them that I am actually feeling a little jittery too! Lol but i'm sure I will do it, cos "those who fly solo have the strongest wings" :))))))

holidays holidays!

It's holidays time!! This hols feels a little bit more "lonely", cos i seem to be one of the few with a break. 工作的工作, 读书的读书... This hols feels abit more fulfilling though :) Have set up(almost) my classroom for next year, from scratch. Honestly, i didn't expect it to be so much work, so many details to watch out for, and took so many days just to do up the stuffs. And i still have other details yet to complete, zzzzzz... Am looking forward to taking my own class, though I can already foretell that it wont be an easy job. But at least, i will have more freedom and say when doing things, i guess. Though I will definitely miss the partnership with TJ, and her tutelage. But well, as she said, it's not like i' m moving super far away! Just 2 rooms down, ahahaha. Managed to watch "You are the apple of my eye", which i have been wanting to watch since hearing raving reviews about it! I'm not a movie person, so i tend to be more particular about the movies that I watch. Not that they have to be Oscar-winning good, but as long as they can let me enjoy the 2 hrs sitting in the cinema, that's good already! But anw, the show did turn out to be rather good, though thr were quite abit of irrelevant parts. Hahah, the time should have been spent on the lead characters, nicer mah! Love the bittersweet storyline though! Managed to meet up with some groups of friends, though there are still more to be met!! Ever since most of the people around me started working, I realise how difficult it is to organise a gathering that everyone can make it. Some people just have to be "sacrificed" at times. But now I know, it's really wiser to just GO AHEAD with the meetup regardless of the attendance, cos if u wait, it's really going to take forever. It's better to at least be able to catchup with some friends, than none at all. Have also FINALLY made plans for korean classes, and braces!! Will just be going for a consultation for my braces, but that's definitely one step further ahead, phew! Just have to settle dance classes, and i'm all set for 2012! :) Will be going on Royal Carribean cruise next week, and then followed by Bintan after that. Have been looking SO forward to a getaway, to take a breather from Singapore!! I think everyone needs a break like this once in a while, and i've been waiting for mine. A good time to recharge my batteries, power up for the new year!! Don't really like packing, so mafannnnn! Especially for longer trips, so many details to take note and many things to bring. Hope I won't forget to bring anyth >.< Oh yes, got a pay raise wef november! :D Was kinda surprised about it, but still very thankful. I know what I'm getting is still peanuts compared to friends who are also working, but it doesnt get that bothering after awhile. I KNOW what i'm doing, I ENJOY what i'm doing, and that's what matters. And I also get perks that others don't have, so what is the point of comparing? Looking at one's salary to determine one's status/value in the society, is completely crap. and sad. I believe there are many other things that we should live for, not just money. But that aside, MONEY is still important la, i know hahah. I still have my own "salary goal", that I will DEFINITELY achieve at some pt of time in life, just not now, yet. Now I'm still in the accumulate experience and knowledge stage. My aim gets blurred at times, and I start to doubt myself at times, but at my current stage, i know this is where i want to be. Just hope that I can develop well into this line as time passes :) Been a long time since i've typed out such a long post! and it's time for bed. Going back to school tmr to help out; they are going to Health Zone for an outing. Will be fun!! Hahah goodnight world!

"Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain" - vivian greene

it's back to work again!! why no feeling of excitement this time? sighhhhs. :( Think i've really slacked too much during this hols, feels like there's alot of work waiting for me to clear. But then again, going to see my kids again tmr!! yayyy :D

thank god i have my kids to keep me going on at work, makes the job so much moreeee enjoyable, and makes everything all worth it. love them so so much!!!

OH YA, just a little dedication to my dearest friend, who has FINALLY found someone who can give her the happiness she wants. Stay happy and sweet like how you are now okay! :)) Very happy for you, so GANDONG!! hahaha T.T

time for bed, goodnight world. please give me more things to be happy about everyday, heheh :))

好的事情
電視劇 醉後決定愛上你 片尾曲
作曲：嚴爵
填詞：嚴爵．黃婷

休息是為了走更長的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因為你 我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛 誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情 最後雖然結束
感動十分 就有十分滿足
謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路
痛 是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情 也許能夠重複
感動時分 就算紛紛模糊
不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚
愛 是為彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛 誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情 最後雖然結束
感動十分 就有十分滿足
謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路
痛 是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情 也許能夠重複
感動時分 就算紛紛模糊
不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚
愛 是為彼此祝福

不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚
愛 是為彼此祝福


nice song i heard recently, on replay nonstop! i guess some things, if they are meant to end, will end someday! don't think so much, just live in the present :))

it's TGIF!! Woots, am over with the first week at work in school. Gosh, this week has been really really hectic, with all the new adjustments and pile of work to do. Started off with a slack day on Monday, with the kids all being so angelic and well-behaved! Great way for the new colleague, teacher P to settle in. Kept warning him though, that the kids are ususally not that hmmm.. "angelic". Haha, guess he got to see it for himself by the second day, when Sebby started to act up! He seems to be settling in though, and I think having that experience really shows. He caught on really fast about the kids, and knows what he has to do. Still miss the rapport with teacher R though, there are times when I would think: "teacher R would have done this instead". Hahah, despite being the only male teacher in our class, teacher R was really the most soft-spoken amongst us 3. We always joked that teacher J and I were like the "monsters", lollll. JOKING OF COURSE, i love my kids loadssss okie! :)

Received a compliment from teacher P today, that really brightened up my day! He said that if I were to continue in SPED teaching, i have the makings of a good teacher. I hope he meant what he says, cos I realised after he said that how much that meant to me! Ever since I started on this job, I'm used to being the inexperienced one, the one who has to be taught what to do and what not to. I always feel like I am not performing well enough yet, that there are still many things that I gotta learn and do. It felt good to receive a compliment about my job, makes me feel more confident about what I'm doing. Of course he doesn't mean that I'm doing well yet, it's just that I'm on the right track. And coming from someone with experience, makes the compliment more valuable! Hahah I realise how a simple positive statement from others, no matter how much the person means it, can be a motivation. Shall start complimenting others more, especially my students, give them more confidence!!! :)) hahah!

To be honest, I think I really learn much more from my current teacher, then the one who was leading me previously. Both are good teachers definitely, but I guess with different aims and goals in their work. Life was good with Sheila, thinking back I think she really took quite good care of me, and not expecting too much. With teacher J, the going gets tough sometimes, but I learn alot more. So that is why they say, nothing is perfect in this world. Hahah oh i wish! Shall end abruptly here, cos my lappy is running out of batt, and I'm too lazy to get the charger. Time for bed alr anw. Goodnight world! :)

Feeling a little emo tonight, cos holidays are overrrrrrrr! :( Work has already piled up, luckily managed to clear some today. This has been a relatively good break, relaxing and just finding some inner peace. HAHA ok la not so kuazhang, basically summarised into one word: SLACK (which i happen to be oh so good at).

Am looking forward to seeing my kids, not so looking forward to the upcoming changes. Haha ok i know i keep complaining about the changes, cos i really dont like!! But I guess I'm already lucky enough to be able to stay with my kids, so..suan le!

Today, one of my relatives just asked me to check out the newspapers today, cos there's this advertisement by SDN. She asked me to take a look at the activities they have, see if i want to join. HAHA, hint noted. :) Honestly, I find it sooooooo awkward to attend functions that you know the purpose is for matchmaking. I dont know, but it feels so despo to me, like i mei ren yao. BOOHOO :'( That's why I'm turning down kind offers from friends to intro "new friends". Hahaha maybe I'm just v baoshou and too shyyyyyyy, but aiyo, damn awkward la. I believe in "fate" in these things, what is mine will be mine. Although I'm really doubting whether I have fate on my side, hahaha. And it's also so hard when I don't even know how I really feel. WEIRD I KNOW. Sometimes I really wonder if I should take a step back, or just heck care and go forward. I'm worried that I won't ever like anyone else again, hahaa. OH NO. shall get mr one and only to marry me then. LOL. Hahah it's ok if you don't get what I'm saying, it's just some midnight ramblings. Guess it's time for me to go to bed, recharge for tmr!! :)

Goodnight, ming tian hui geng hao~~

Haven't been here for agessssssss! Since i'm on holidays now, finally have the time and "feel" to blog. :) Although, holidays are ending in 3 days time. Hahaha. Guess life has been just about the same; same-old same-old! Just came here to clear the cobwebs i guess, heh. The main highlights of my holiday this time was just the 2 nights stay at Hotel Michael! Stayed the first night with jc friends, was nice to catch up with them! I always feel very comfortable amongst this group of friends; it feels like we know each other since forever. <3 It was a nice feeling to wake up with these good friends around me, i think we should plan an overseas trip tgt!!! I know we've been saying this for so long, but hope that our plans would come through someday!! :))

Stayed the second night at the hotel with my parents, and it was just chill and relax. Went to Singapore Seafood Republic for dinner, my treat for Fathers' Day. The restaurant is a collaboration between Tung Lok, Jumbo, Palm beach and The Seafood International Market & Restaurant, which sure sounds good right!! But honestly, the food was a tad disappointing. Not that they were not nice, but I guess maybe we had too high expectations. Overall still quite alright la! The next day we impromptu-ly went to Sentosa and sat on the Skyride. Lol my dad was gripping the handlebars super tightly, and I was so afraid that my shoes would fall off. I can take thrilling roller coaster rides, but my 'tolerance level' for such slowwwww and HIGH rides are really much lower. When I saw how even little kids were taking the ride so easily, while the sweat was bursting out of my soles, felt so sheepish. Hahaha. Give me a roller coaster ride anytime instead pls!

Oh and I got my driving license exactly a month back, happyyyyy! :) Happy monthsary to my driving license LOL. So proud of myself to pass on the 1st attempt! I'm really fortunate to have 2 good instructors, they really helped to instill so much confidence in me. Don't really dare to think about the total amount spent, but I guess it was all worth it! Am getting the hang of driving, though my parking still sucks. Haha well i guess practice makes perfect!

Coming here to blog reminds me of all the lessons that I still have to prepare for next term, not done yet omgggg. :( Been slacking around these hols, basically just enjoying the break. It's time to get cracking again! Looking forward to seeing my kids again :D :D I'm glad to be in a job where I look forward to going everyday, that at least I don't dread the hours. Time always seems to fly past when I'm in class, though of course there have been days that seemed so looooooong. But there are going to be changes in the new term, that I'm honestly not looking forward to. :(:( One of the teachers in my class is going to transfer to another class, so we're not going to work with him anymore. SIGHS! Hate the instability of things, especially just when we all got comfortable and the rapport is there. Just hope that there will be no more changes PLEASE.

Going out soon for an impromptu k session, hahaha i love occasional impromptu events. :D It's nice to come here to blabber, will be back! :)

Am in the blogging mood again! Shall not talk about my driving, since a friend commented that I keep talking about my driving. HAHAHA. Let me share abit of my enthusiasm and zeal ma, hehehe :P

It's going to be the end of 2010! SO FAST OMG! I think the days are just zooming by so fast, so hard to catch them! My youth is slipping away!! OH NOOO! HAHAHA ok so bimbotic. LOL. But honestly, I should really catch onto my youth, and do all that I want to. Although some things are really not within my means la. humph. 2010 has been rather happening for me i guess, and it's like one of the milestones in my life. More significant than turning 21! Hahah. Maybe i should "copy" yy and do a summary of my 2010 in the next blog post. HEHEHE. :)

aiyaaa the "feel like typing" mood just dispersed. HAHA. And it's time to sleep! gotta go back to SGI tmr morning to set up classroom. MAY I WAKE UP ON TIME. HOHO.

Went for driving lesson just now, have started going on the roads since the previous lesson. The feeling is SHIOKNESS! hahaha! Have always been in the passenger seat, first time looking at the roads from the driver's view! Ok la it looks exactly the same, but the feeling is oh-so-different!! :) Cant't wait to get my license, though the lessons are making me so poor!! :(

Been staying at homequite abit these days revamping my room!! Hahah finally cleared out loads of rubbish and stuffs that i've been storing away for yearsssss! I'm the kind that likes to hold onto old things, so I still have ALOT of my old notes/files/books/blahblah. After realising how nice it is to have a non-cluttered room, I decided to 狠下心 and threw away many old stuffs. Can't believe I still kept my sec school Chemistry notes; useless stuff! Hahah not like I'm going to bother about the various acids/alkalines/blahblah anymore.. Felt a little sad clearing out my JC notes though; it brought back so many memories! Memories of sitting in the air-conditioned class listening to the teachers, of eating fishball noodle during break( especially jap don on fridays), of studying till late at night in school near a' levels, of practicing in the small little co room...so many! :)))) Honestly, looking at all that i've studied for a levels, how much effort i put in, how i studied during uni was really bleahhhhh.. I guess I really need teachers to be there to prod me to study, for the school to drop reminders and stress on us every few days. Haha, OTOT just doesn't seem to work for me. SIGH.

And JC was also the period when I got to know some of the awesome friends I have in my life now <3 I guess the bonds forged when we were all working together towards the same goal just stays, no matter what. I guess things happen for a reason, somehow we will meet up and click with people destined to stay in our lives! :))

Hooked onto a song recently, it's not really new, but not too old too! hahaha. it's 寂寞寂寞就好 by S.H.E's Hebe. NICEEEEE! :))

還是原來那個我 不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦
對著鏡子我承諾 遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容

不算什麼 愛錯就愛錯
早點認錯 早一點解脫

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 借來的都該還掉

我總會把你戒掉

還是原來那個你 是我自己做夢你有改變什麼
再多的愛也沒用 每個人有每個人的業障因果

會有什麼 什麼都沒有
早點看破 才看得見以後

我寂寞寂寞就好 這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱
就讓我一個人去痛到受不了 想到快瘋掉
死不了就還好

我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了 賴著不放掉
人本來就寂寞的 我總會把你戒掉

time for bed!! nitessssssssss!